Art

So I chose art as one of my GCSE options, it was not much of a decision to be honest, because I have always loved the subject! I remember being in reception and painting all afternoon every day, those were the easy days, but I wish I could do that now.

I have always had a creative streak, and I am really looking forward to doing my course work. We do a year of corse work, and then an exam at the end. 

On a negative note, I got my report this morning and received a B2... Maybe I was expecting too much, but I have never received anything less than an A or A*! I have worked the hardest in my class and done lots of extra work too, but i guess it's a 'try again next time'. 

Happy half term!

So this is mainly a matter of me showing off, because most if the schools around mine are still open, but for some reason, we get an exta week of holiday? (I'm not complaining) so I wish you all a happy half term if you are off work/school, but I wish myself one too :)

Since it's the run up to christmas, I will spend most of the Holliday shopping (my hobby) and will end up spending quite a lot of money unfortunately... Anyway, this will be a chance for me to relax and catch up on things which I am looking forward to.

Adios x

Smile...

Hello againnn... I would just like to share a theory I have. 

I believe that smiles are highly contagious. So when you smile or do a kind gesture for somebody, you are brightening somebodies day. I know this because I always try to look on the 'bright side of life'. So even if I am having a sh*t day, I will look forward and make the most of it. So if anyone out there is one wondering how to brighten their own day, just talk to somebody or give them a smile because i can assure you that it will help. I also think that is much more attractive to be a positive person, not just for the oppsite sex; it's a lot easier to socialise with people when you are not sitting in the corner crying... 

Which leads me onto a(nother) quote! I'm not sure if this is becoming a tradition now or just a habit but I think quotes give quite a good reference to life :)

(I love me some Audrey Hepburn)

An outer shell

Just thought I would let you know that...

Inside, I am one if the nicest people you will ever meet, and I know how to filter out time wasters from friends. But sometimes i come across as someone a lot cockier than I am. The title if this post may help you understand how I am very cocky when put in certain situations and have an outer shell in one personality, but once you get to know me I am very different. I honestly just want the best for everyone (myself included). If you are a nice person, I will do anything to help you. But once I see a glint of bitch, you are out of the picture.

P.S. This late night blogging has to stop. I need my beauty sleep. 

If I were a boy... RANT

Yes, you guessed it, the title of this post was inspired by the one and only Beyoncé. I'm not really a massive fan but she makes some pretty good music! 

So I don't want to actually be a boy, or turn lesbian or anything... But over the last few days, I have realised that there are quite a lot if benefits to being a boy. 

I am 100% happy in my own body, and I am a typical girly girl, (obsessed with handbags, makeup etc.) and I have a very feminine personality I suppose, but being a girl can get so annoying! Here are my reasons:

To start, I love makeup and getting ready, but you are always judged on how you look/dress! Secondly it gets unbelievably bitchy at times. Don't get me wrong, I love a good bitch, as long as it's not too serious, and all girls do. If you deny it then you are lying. 

Boys don't have these problems, and although I'm sure they have others, us girls have to stay like this! It gets so annoying when you have to fight with some of your best friends, and have to sit apart from who you thought were your friends at lunch. It is all nonesense. Some people just need to learn to keep their cool, stop spreading false rumours, stop overreacting about things, and stop lying.

I'm not going to lie...

To be honest, I don't know much/enough about suicide... I am glad about this, because I guess if I did know a lot about it, then that would mean I knew somebody who had killed themselves... I know quite a lot if people who self harm, most who are close friends, I support them theough that, but to be totally honest, I have no idea whatsoever what they are feeling. I thought I did, I thought I could sympathise with them and help them through it, but I just don't understand. I want to, and I feel sorry for them all! But I am not going to pretend I know how to support them when I don't. The reason I am saying this, is because I was originally going to put my email on the previous post so people could ask for support, but I rescently searched #suicide into Instagram and it hit me. I was utterly disturbed to what I saw, people casually uploading their cut-covered arms, with an annotation of 'I got bored' I just don't understand it... It makes me really upset to think that people would do this to them self. So I realised that I don't actually know what they go through and I should therefore not advertise myself as 'someone to talk to'. 

I thought seeing these pictures would make me happier with my life, and feel relieved to not have to go through that, but it just burnt a hole inside me. 

This is one if the quotes that really touched me... Since I am 14 too :(

I hope this does not come across like me showing off saying I am 'one if the lucky ones' and I am not in anyway saying I am discusted by it... But it is very hard for some people to understand what others go through. 

X

Suicide/Self harm

Just to say, before anyone gets worried that this is some kind of goodbye post. It is not. Don't worry :').

Right, so I don't think I have ever had suicidal thoughts, and I am not trying to advertise that I am 'perfect' or 'happy'. But what I do know is that there is a recipe to happiness... This is different for everyone, so I can't really tell you what to do, but happiness is basically one of the most important things in life. When people say 'would you rather be rich and sad, or poor and happy' you must be quite silly to say the former.
People often associate money with happiness because money can buy the essentials, but this is not the case. I have gotten quite off subject now, but what I was trying to say is, if life is not what you want it to be, life can change. Infact it will change, and if you are getting bullied, or getting hate messages, the. Just be the better person, turn off your phone, and try hard in school, because although at the time, it may seem hard to not follow the crowd, there is no 'crowd' after school. This is why the 'nerds' always win. This isn't just to do with suicide, but depression too. Just do what you want in life! There's no point copying everyone else...