I've been thinking...

So I guess that I have never really posted anything personal on here, to be honest, I did not plan to at all, I mean, there was no intention since this blog is not under my name anyway... But since I have been finding it hard to show/share my emotions recently, I thought this might be a way to do so...  

I am hardly going through some kind of crisis :') but I have been thinking quite hard lately about things and as a person I have realised that I am sort of too nice. This will make people instantly think that I am cocky but I did not mean that to sound bigheaded in anyway. I don't mean that I am nice as in a perfect person... But I am far too forgiving. I can assure you that what ever you do/say to me. I will forgive and forget within hours. This makes me a very vulnerable person and I need to change this! I don't let people manipulate me, but while people are manipulating others around me, It makes me look like a weaker person. So although I grew up being told to 'be best version of your self' and 'play nicely'. Being nice really doesn't help. So you know what, be an absolute bitch if you want to. I have learnt this over the last few days. sometimes if you play nice, you lose. ✌Peace out